I am not a fan of Mother's Day

TONS of Mother's Day posts and pictures started popping up on my Facebook account this morning; including several text messages and Facebook messages from family, friends and former students for me.  For this, I am truly thankful.

Allow me to be honest, I am not a fan of Mother’s Day.  Now before you send out the mob to knock me around, allow me to share.  

I am an only child.  Please do not feel sorry for me in any way, I had wonderful imaginary friends, an exorbitant amount of stuffed animals, and fantastic childhood friends, many of whom I still share life with. 

Growing up, I was positive I was not going to be a wife or mother.  I wanted to travel the world, speak several foreign languages and make lots of money in corporate America.  Where would I fit a marriage or family into this formula?  Much less time for church.

But, as you can see that changed.  It’s unexplainable what God chose for me; my plan, nowhere near His, or so I thought.

When my second daughter was born, that was the last time I saw my mom.  Kaidence is 11 years old now.  My mom is still alive, but we are estranged.  See, my mother has a dependent personality and is grossly controlled by outside influences.  

I have struggled for more years than I would like to admit about forgiveness, as God would have me do.  I have beat myself up thinking that I am a terrible Christian because of my bitter and anger towards the person who brought me into this world.  It wasn’t until I had children, that I realized I wasn’t truly angry or bitter.  I was mad with the disease and choices she made that took my mother away from me.

I pray for my mom every day.  Sometimes, multiple times a day, as I see things that remind me of her OR my children do something that I wish I could share.  Until that day comes, I will not cease praying for my mom and I ask you to do the same.  “Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.” – Colossians 3:13

I am NOT a fan of Mother’s Day!  I am a fan of 365 days I get to be a mother.  I am a fan that God chose me to have three biological children and ‘dopt another, with THE MOST AMAZING man ever.  Today, I am not celebrating Mother’s Day.  Today, I celebrate: Happy Dr. Pastor Mama Ugly Face Day, because God chose me to raise and love these little humans in Him.